reflections...

i have been taking lots of photos lately... experimenting... seeing lots of souls... reminding people how crazy toubab (white) can be... moving the camera around so much... making everything so blurry... "i'm still learning" i keep repeating... and i try again... people think i really suck... i have this nice digital camera and can't take a straight shot... maybe i really do suck... making simple things look complicated... distorting people's faces... looking for secret reflections... sometimes i wonder what's wrong with me... always trying to do everything my own way... looking for a secret little path next to the freeway... working jobs and hustling around so i can keep capturing real life... doing it all for the love of it... it's hard to understand sometimes... impossible to explain properly... it's just like this blog in a way... personal... like last night we had a little meeting with the 6 main characters from zenzela (click on mlprodutions... click on the mirror... and click on zenzela to watch it if you haven't)... it was the first andonly flip i did with a little story to it... it was 3 years ago... so we talked about it... they wanted to know what happened with it... who had seen it... if i had gained anything from it... if they would ever get anything out of it... all in all, they wanted to know the point of it... so i asked them if they liked it... if they felt satisfied with their own image... they said they watched it over and over again... they loved being in a movie about their own lifes... wouldn't you? i told them that was what it was all about... that if any of us did it for fame or money then we did the wrong thing... zenzela is a personal thing to share with people who care about it... it's like a mutual favor that brings people together... a place to see different people from all over the world doing their thing... and as we watch each other... care for each other's lifestyles... zenzela becomes this secret little path next to the freeway... timeless... where we have a commun bound... appear in our own flips... listen... respect... appreciate each others... exist... and that's all it's all about... reminding ourselves that we exist...